Addicted To Video Games

I look back on my life, what do I see, a life time wasted playing video games. What I didn't know then, I can understand now, living a false sense of fulfillment because I lacked satisfaction in myself. What started as fun and games ended up a place for to me hide, within the world gaming it felt like was accomplishing something with my life, countless nights of broken sleeps, still seeing games when I closed my eyes, all they really gave me was a sore head, and blurry eye's. Attari under 5, Comadore 64 under 5, Calculator games 5-12, video parlors 6, Astro wars 7, Hand held games 6- 12 as well, Sega 12, Sega mega drive 13-18, Nintendo 13 too 18 , Back to Parlors 13-22 , Ps1, 21, Nintendo 64, 22, Ps2 23, Ps2 slim line, 24, Poker machines 24-30, Computer games 27-35 Xbox, 33, Xbox 360, not yet, psp at 34, Nintendo Wii, 35, now i'm on Ps3. If you wan't to take it a bit deeper, psychologically I mean, the three main reason I play so long were: Control, lack of fulfillment and anxiety. Control was something I never had, In the games I did, they also gave me the fulfillment I was lacking in the life that I lived, anxiety is what pushed me to the games, within them I could hide, this is why I stay addicted, addicted for a life time. Me and video games, Yeah we been round the block, I just shake me head now, O.M.G what a waste of time that was, I don't play games often now, maybe twice a month I guess, I just decided to find better things to do with myself. M.Mahauariki © 2012