Adamas

Justifications fall from your mouth like shrapnel truer to yourself than any other cares to be because inside you know they lack the power to truly see see you as you are not a person, not a punching bag in silence listen carefully and take another drag forget their reprimands the world is so unkind just a little more to go but the blind shall lead the blind take another hit conceal yourself in flame to gain the strength to end it aren’t you tired of being to blame no more nightmares, no more shame dust off your shoulder clear the cobwebs full of pretty lies no point in standing up to fight with a haze of smoke behind their eyes pulse pounds and ears ring venom spews, coagulates deep inside an empty useless thing but joy fades forever more just to mimic sunshine on a desolate shore a bed of lies no more goodbyes watch as hours pass and an entire lifetimes flies by too quickly, then it is gone denials voiced and truths unspoken those who bleed but live unbroken trading diamonds in for seashells just to feel a part of something larger than themselves Is this how spirits feel Fading in and out To remain as phantoms still Forever trapped in spaces Too small to take a breathe Endlessly awaiting A cold and careless death