Absence

it's like the confusion has set in. it's happened before but has been ignored. it feels like not a face cares about the well being of such a beast. a beast that hides his insides in fear of insult and ridicule. he has done wrong yet the people still blame him for mishap. he cannot express his true feeling because no ears will listen. he cares so dearly for her, but she refuses to come forth. it's been long that they've conversed, yet it means nothing to her. he does not care for appearance, in his mind, she is a goddess. a personality people can only dream for, but never find. she was the only one he could stand talking to and listen. if only she felt the same way, things would be perfect. he does not need anyone else, he does not want anyone else. he wants her, and he's tried, but she threw it back. now he is in an endless spiral of abysmal hate and confusion. wondering what he should do next, he wishes not to hurt anyone. times like these turn people insane, but he is stronger than that. but the absence of light is the only thing that is on his mind the absence of light will end this feeling of agony... if she wont want him, then nobody will.