abrupt adjournment

I stay stationary, collapsed, in a room unlike mine I stay bare, as I wait for my thoughts to align the bloodied hand continues it's repetitive round soon the dust in this chamber will have me drowned my scaffolding will be unveiled before I accept this isn't a hallucination because I overslept I cry, I kick, I bite, I scream I weep, I hit, my eye's they stream my feet move my carcass for the very first time so back to my predecessor's cradle, I can climb the circle of life I complete at one and seven and I hope to have again before I witness heaven my consciousness a station that's only channel is you I theorised us as true, not our love debut the favourable and dreadful constantly contending no speculation was given to our feasible mending I crave to be livid and despise your existence instead I sympathise and empathise and acknowledge our distance your presence and aroma was a familiar setting with your forthcoming absence it's you I'll be forgetting formerly I was craving your presence and touch now praying to avoid your glance and clutch dreading to glimpse dreamy eyes turned devil as our look will never again be that special