Abandoned Soul
You're only there when you need me
Hope is hanging by a thread
Waiting for inclusion
Or am I imagining it in my head
Waiting for an answer
Your voice I never hear
Still I sit by
And wait...abandonment is my worst fear
You know this about me
But still you sit idly by
Watching my body squirm
With every ploy that I try
Fear is a sickness
Not a state of mind
I sit here and wonder
Why I need you in my life
There is something about you
You captured my loyalty
Still waiting for you to notice
My abandoned soul as it screams
The power that you have
Is only when I give
So closing my eyes now
And in my mind I try to live
It’s an unrealistic portrayal
My life is tied in knots
Trying to figure out where the rope ends
Without getting caught
It’s a never ending battle
Of a good and evil plan
Tiptoeing through disaster
Still reaching for your hand
Who will actually be there?
When my soul finally implodes
Rewinding through the genocide
Of a life that no one really knows
You sit there and watch
This like a movie on a screen
Relaxing in your easy chair
Wondering if it’s a dream…..
My life is not a movie
Or a something in your mind
Why can’t you ever hear me
As I scream on the inside
Facing the brutal truth
It breaks my bleeding heart
But I know it’s the only way
To mend these deep everlasting scars
So I face the truth without you
You were never really there
A figment of my imagination
Sitting in fates nonexistent chair
Copyright © Jod!E Quintero | Year Posted 2010
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