Abandoned Soul

You're only there when you need me Hope is hanging by a thread Waiting for inclusion Or am I imagining it in my head Waiting for an answer Your voice I never hear Still I sit by And wait...abandonment is my worst fear You know this about me But still you sit idly by Watching my body squirm With every ploy that I try Fear is a sickness Not a state of mind I sit here and wonder Why I need you in my life There is something about you You captured my loyalty Still waiting for you to notice My abandoned soul as it screams The power that you have Is only when I give So closing my eyes now And in my mind I try to live It’s an unrealistic portrayal My life is tied in knots Trying to figure out where the rope ends Without getting caught It’s a never ending battle Of a good and evil plan Tiptoeing through disaster Still reaching for your hand Who will actually be there? When my soul finally implodes Rewinding through the genocide Of a life that no one really knows You sit there and watch This like a movie on a screen Relaxing in your easy chair Wondering if it’s a dream….. My life is not a movie Or a something in your mind Why can’t you ever hear me As I scream on the inside Facing the brutal truth It breaks my bleeding heart But I know it’s the only way To mend these deep everlasting scars So I face the truth without you You were never really there A figment of my imagination Sitting in fates nonexistent chair