A Villanelle of Loss

How long can I sit here? With my head in my hands Drenched in layers of my fear. Stop thinking, my thoughts all smear Like ocean water devouring the sands How long can I sit here? Urgent whispers within my ear Speaking sorrow of the sacred lands Drenched in layers of my fear. I'm strong for long, but wait! There's a tear The shattering of my dreamlands. How long can I just sit here? Those evil thoughts, they always sneer When there is only one left who stands Drenched in layers of my fear. Here they come, they draw near! With all of their cruel demands How long can I just sit here Drenched in layers of my fear?