A Smiling Fault

Happy with anger Smile; my fault Way down it feels Weak to the bones My fault When I wish; death Upon myself Slight disconnection With a broken world The limbo of hell It's my fault When I do not smile Only with it When all judge Freak from a love Avoid this heart Letting be, a man made curse It's dislike wings bitterness Destroying a self-esteem Yet is my fault Crushed by a lover Neglected in the process No life is met But a distaste in the face That scowls the quiet voice With no room to talk No way of showing If he cares A friendship is dared Burning at end Yet is my fault When love in the air Is not seen by a close dear Ignored from here They still won't know Or just won't care That my love is still here When they date My wishes are said That they would know That I'm standing right here But of course they won't know Mindless of thee They will not see The love that exist in me And yet It's my fault All with death When sadness arises All with abuse When hurt is the problem All with neglect When loneliness cuts this chest Is all my fault When I am depressed When I could have; smiled In my tragic mess