A Shadow of the Former You

The paranoia you caused me triggered a change in my character my personality adapted to certain ways that weren't planned for and when challenged I latched on which created imbalancement with a chain reaction generating new clear embarrassment Im channeling this energy you tried to erase taking the brace off the back that has carried it's weight Im removing the scaffolding that's stood there in place establishing strength that stabalised the breakages we happened to face While crafting our fate creating our demise manufacturing frames of mind causing brain damage and shakes and when I rewind it reminds me not get at it again I had some self restraint then when in that fragile state I backed away swearing I would never go back again That's how I can stand here today explaining some issues because I love to hate you and f#**ing hate to miss you Doesn't mean I wanna kiss you I ain't reconsidering distance because there isn't a chance of rekindling our spirits I'm just clearing up a few things like the source of interference after a years worth of disconnection because I don't wanna a see a fool in the mirror when I look at my reflection