A Phoennix Without Wings On a Roller Coaster

I rise like a Phoenix but is the fire hot enough to melt down the bricks which I've build in front of my heart? Am I really over you or do I just talk myself away from you? Am I still in love with you or do I just talk me into it? It's life's roller coaster ride do I still want you as my bride? Even when I know that I'm crossing the ocean I don't know if you are my poison or potion I don't know where I stand and I don't know where I'm going is the wind still blowing your name or just a familiar thing? A thing were I'm used to A thing that used to let me shine and glow but in the end every star will blow what's lasting of the beauty are pieces of dust and ashes The pain slowly fades but the emptiness stays I felt back into place after I lost your grace I try to run away but in the end I may come back and stay