A mother's balance

Oh what a fabulous day today! Not a day for the mundane, lets take the time Travel out, go visit-"just a moment it will be fine" Where was i? Ah yes Thrown on a coat and smooth down my dress Somewhere a treat, a change of routine "Shoes on now, stop making a scene!" Adventures to start-"no put that down please" Castles or art? "I said get up off your knees!" Bags packed, lock checked, oh we better get fuel! This day is taxing, car packed like a mule Yes lets start the fun, we deserve it us three After a week of work, like felling a tree "Stop shouting at her, now stop touching him" This day out is a farce, my patience worn thin "Not right now darling" I'm paying the man Who probably regrets admitting my clan "Guys pay attention" but i need a minute or ten To gather myself, but arent i doing whats best for them? Days out are a must, theyre not small for long "Just give me a minute!" Its all going wrong Back home we go, your haven, my roof Mummy's just tired, and feeling aloof Little arms creep around, "that's nice, little cuddle?" "Oh you're brother's here too, jump up and snuggle!" Regret sets in, they just want my time Money no matter, just memories of mine I try to not snap, doing it all alone Guilt sneaks on in, as i check my phone Photos of smiles, and mess and cake It was worth it for them, my life they do make. The love always there between tired and stressed, mother finds it hard, but im doing my best