1000 Pages of Loss

I write to express it,
to let it out, to cry it out,
it still hurts, 
the depth of loss,
I am so tired of hurting, exhausted,
from missing you,
the pen, worn out,

hating you makes me feel better,
thinking of all the ways you are evil,
and such a pathetic person, 
for not loving me in return,
and how i deserve so much better.
That anger exhausts me.

Until i fall back into love,
and forgiveness, 
my heart, with a hole.
I will wait for eternity,
for you to return my love.
I will give you my broken heart
to show you, to prove my love,
a sacrifice.
I will wait, never love another, 
and hold this pain, cradling it, gently.
A cherished wound, to show you,
and you will know that no one
will ever love you like that again. 

thats funny, what a joke
she will only love me if i become stronger
more money, more respect, more power,
She isnt capable of love, 
of seeing my true beauty, 
All she cares for is money and power.
The artist has no value to her. 
She lied to me, got what she wanted and left.
Wounded women love my broken heart.
It tastes delicious to them.
i bet i was only breakfast.

After 1000 pages of this,
I still do not feel any better.....
Copyright © | Year Posted 2010

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Devonshire Avatar
January 9, 2010 at 11:24 AM
You don't need a teacher, Michael. You are a leader and have a keen vision and insight into people and the workings of the world. Please, write with me!! Carolyn
Stella Avatar
January 9, 2010 at 7:01 AM
for this reason I got a dog no back talk and honest to the gill I enjoyed this read tho sad still brought a smile to face cause you won in the end got rid of the wolf in sheep clothing remember we hold our own destiny just think of this as another dam lesson well learned for I was with this guy for 20 yrs and never knew he was married until I confronted him on his death bed but I chose not to carry anger for why let it ruin my day keep on writing mike cause I enjoy your work
Bien Avatar
January 9, 2010 at 6:22 AM
beautiful, painful but beautiful...JB
Nelson Avatar
January 5, 2010 at 8:29 AM
this poem was creative full of emotion and had psychological themes, i thoroughly enjoyed it, could see how it could be misunderstood, i will add in your defense religion was not meant to harm people but to stop people from harming eachother, dont throw rocks in glasshouses guys
Harman Avatar
January 1, 2010 at 2:17 PM
So i am supposed to lie and say your poetry is good, when i dont think it is. I owe you a favor? because you gave me a compliment? My religion is to be honest, and i do hurt people with it. Jesus taught to forgive people that hurt you, you dont get to wait until they ask for it,,,, go read his teachings...lol
Culverhouse Avatar
January 1, 2010 at 2:07 PM
I am still a human with emotions, and you haven't asked me for forgiveness, I thought your comments are mean also! I was nice and spoke kindly to several of your poems and that is how you repaid me? You can jump in a lake!
Harman Avatar
January 1, 2010 at 2:01 PM
WOW, that was really mean. The vengeance inside you is evil, wow, its amazing,,, I thought you guys believed in forgiveness and kindness....
Culverhouse Avatar
January 1, 2010 at 1:32 PM
bet you soured their stomach... To your last comment, that is what a fool would say. (on my Lydia poem) We don't know God's plans, so we have to prepare for the future.
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