When
When your father leaves you at age six,
When you first start knowing the feeling of lonely and ignored by your parents,
When all your father does is hurt you with words,
When your mother moves you miles away from her to your grandmas house, just so she could work two shifts at work,
When finally after a year you go back home but notice the difference, home don't feel like home anymore,
When four guys rape you and you cant seem to remember anything after or why they did that, just so much pain and confusion,
When you start cutting yourself because pain is the only thing you feel,
When your uncle puts a gun in your head and starts taking off your clothes,
When your uncle molests you a year later after getting raped,
When you turn into drugs to feel better and forget about your past,
When all you want to do is die,
When you get bullied all your life,
When you feel so ugly and disgusted,
When you think you found love at fifteen years of age and all he does is hurt you,
When you tried to commit suicide and almost died,
When your mother makes the hardest decision of her life and puts you in a mental hospital at fifteen years of age,
When you find out your expecting a baby inside a mental hospital,
When you finally get out the hospital and god sends you an angel,
When you slowly start forgiving all the people who once hurt you and start living,
When your son is the reason why your still alive and you do anything to survive,
That's when you will know what I went through.
Copyright © Joanna Ramos | Year Posted 2018
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