I Don'T Understand Why You Don'T Understand
Look, I know I’m not perfect.
I’ll tell you that again if it helps.
While my emotional wounds are healed
They’ve left scars and welts
And those don’t just go away.
You don’t understand what I’ve felt.
How could you? That’s silly of me
To expect that of you.
As anyone can see
Your life’s been pretty easy.
Except you can’t see your inherent advantages
From the fact that you’re lacking all of the damage.
It’s something you just take for granted.
I would love to just not feel this way.
I would love for my brain to behave.
I could do it but I need help to do it.
If you can’t help me, I’m better off going it alone.
It’s been long enough, and my cover is blown,
My happy charade, I’ve lost it.
And with it, I know, maybe you too.
I just wish I knew
Why you refuse to accept
That though I could change, it’s true,
It’s not going to happen right on cue.
Ignoring my calls doesn’t help at all.
I know that you’re putting up a wall
Because you don’t want to deal with the fall
That will happen if you don’t call.
You’re trapped also in a circle, we have that in common.
I just wish for a second you would be honest
With yourself and realize
That the world is not simply truth and lies.
Even with success there are degrees you can achieve.
There are different markers for hitting your dreams.
Why does mine have to be inferior?
Copyright © Jack Cristine | Year Posted 2017
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