Desire X Melani: To My Unknown Lover: This Heart
2017
I fell in love.
Never looked back
It was all crystal clear
I wrote to my anonymous lover once
Or so I dreamt
A serenade to win his heart
But he was taken, he said
I was heartbroken!
Unromantic is what they called his kind
But his touch, oh Lord
His eyes, those deep lover’s eyes that caressed my skin
Those eyes that undressed me, by but a look
Those pools that made my heart bloom
A forbidden tale he was
And that beautiful smile, the jaw
Lord, calm my soul
I talked
We talked
Uninterested is what they called his kind
He was a lover
Bless my soul, but of too many
I knew I had to stop
But a philosopher said once...
Our souls know each other and who they belong to
Mine to his
His to many
That then was why I kept my heart to me
But it yearns still for my unknown lover.
I was past that
I had learnt to live with this broken heart
Because the glue to make intact this heart
Is yet to be manufactured
But he wrote to me today
(14 February 2021)
He said:
“You fell in love with me
You crushed on me
From a distance
Because you failed to show me
That you were up for romance
Sorry unknown lover
You were all wrong about me
I am not as romantic as you think
Im a bad lover
By not finding an inciting trick
You were your heart’s saver
Infact your ancestors are clever
I am an unromantic player
You were gonna spend your life in prayer
Because everyday was gonna be heartbreaking
Meeting strangers who romance with me everyday
I don’t even know what love is
As long as I see a girl, beautiful face
Then my heart could say yes
I fall for everyone with boobs
Is that the man you need?
Maybe you don’t mind
Maybe you love this drama
Maybe you needed to change me
But I was afraid to tell you I love you
Because I don’t know love
I know you know I needed you
This time, not in bed like I do for other girls
But I needed you in my life
Im sorry unknown lover
You are too delicate for this
You need someone who will love you honestly
Someone who will take you out
Someone to buy you roses on Valentine’s
Someone with whom, your life, you can start
I don’t think that’s me!
I hide my destitution, I’m so poor
I’m not Christian, of religion, I’m not sure
I don’t reason, my conscience is not clear
There is more I cant say
But I don’t see myself being yours”
My heart is in fractures
It bleeds!
This decaying dark red blood floors
I hope it clots!
Copyright © Desire Kateyera | Year Posted 2021
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