Misdeemed Me
All the things that I thought you loved about me....were the one's you hated most
Why I believed that you would love me.....when I couldn't love myself
I was fool
To think that I could be loved and saved
While I was broken till very end
I was graveyard of all my emotions and dreams
I was a dead flower within
You called it jokes....when pointed my flaws
And I laughed cause fool I was
Now it's making sense
Because I just saw me with your lens
Why did I believe that you would like me....when I couldn't like myself
Now you are disappointed
And I m dying inside
I couldn't even ask for help
Cause you won't understand
I did what you told me
I tried my very best
Well I just wasn't enough for you
But I wish If I had
Why did I believe that you would live with me when I couldn't live with myself
As we lie in the same bed
Still way too far
Sometimes we couldn't talk
Sometimes we don't wanna talk
I can hear you
Changing sides and breathing a lot
Is it getting suffocating or you just wanna go more far?
I said I love you
But I didn't hear you saying a word
Why did I believe that you would want me when I don't want myself.
I f**king hate myself.
Copyright © Deeksha Gehlawat | Year Posted 2021
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