Self in Time
I can face a bear and not back down, I can face that bear without fear.
I can fight a shark in water against my nature and I will fight that shark till the death..
I can fight in war not afraid, I can walk through fire be burned and still go, a flood, an earthquake,
tornado, hurricane, any natural disasters horrors, none which fill me with worry nor fear.. I can face a killer, a monster of men, a devil, a demon or anything in between and not break.
I can be stabbed, burned alive, drowned, torched, and every horrible thing that can be done
to the flesh and it still wouldn't drain my strength.
I can be called names, bullied, threatened, made fun of, verbally and physically abused,
yet my mind will still be peaceful, sane and sound.
But...but...I cannot face my memories, not a single one. I cannot face my memories, I will
come undone. I cannot face my memories, they alone have the power to destroy.
I cannot face those memories it means hearing my own heart break. I cannot face that type of
heartache.
I cannot face the loss of those I have loved and died, I cannot face the damage I have
done to other lives. I cannot face the truth that I burry deep in lies, deep, deep inside .
I cannot face the pain I have desperately learned to hide.
I can not face time as I know it laughs in my face. I can not face the time lost that can never
be replaced.
People say they admire my strength but they do not know the truth. They see only the superficial
side...the side that's full of the lies, they only want to see, I guess it's easier to except.
But, My Darlings, my dears, if you came near, you will see what time has done to me.
What time has stolen in my youth, just to break me in my old age, as it reminds me that
it's time, in the end that makes us all afraid.
Copyright © Carissa L Barriga | Year Posted 2026
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