Lost In the Mist
Feeling lost is the worst feeling in the world and I wouldn't wish it on anyone.
It feels like I'm walking around not being able to see anything.
There are times I simply want to matter to someone...anyone.
I try to reach out to others, its just that I dont get anything back. When this happens it makes everything a lot worse.
Then the feeling of being lost gets mixed with the feeling of being invisible.
There are days when I wonder if there is anyone out there that wants to talk to me as much as I want to talk to them.
I scream out to anyone only to hear myself and to everyone else I'm not screaming at all.
I wonder if it's only I walking thru this endless dark cloud alone.
I wonder if anyone will see me thru this dark heavy cloud or if I'll disappear within it.
To be ever alone missing ones that dont miss me, not talking to anyone since they wouldn't notice me gone anyways.
The moment I think I'm able to remove the blindfold it only goes back on even tighter.
This endless dark heavy cloud is eating me alive.
Wanting to give up and walk off a cliff only not knowing which direction I need to go.
I wonder if I could find it if I didn't have the blinders up?
I used to ask if anyone would save me.
Now I'm left to wonder if anyone would even care enough to see me.
So I just walk around aimlessly just as lost as I started.
Copyright © Maggie Thorne | Year Posted 2020
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