Breaking Free
Black and white, reality blurring at the seams.
Dependent on a bottle, to silence the screams.
Isolated and alone, unsure where to turn.
Wondering if all along I inevitably would’ve burned.
I tried to keep my head up, but the chains only got stronger.
Faking a smile, not sure for how much longer.
Battling the demons, while trying to be a good friend.
Trying to find sympathy, despite all the lies you spread.
Trying to find life, despite the desire to be dead.
Why did you do it? That, I’ll always wonder.
Did you think it was funny, to be the cause of why I went under?
Downward spirals and a vicious cycle.
You did something that I thought wasn’t possible.
You destroyed the trust I vowed to never give again.
You lied to me, and said you wanted to be my friend.
You tarnished everything that I ever held dear.
You caused me to spend every day, paralyzed in fear.
Amber liquids, puffs of nicotine, and all the deception, none of that helped.
I lied to myself, time and time again.
Saying that this was all going to be the end.
There may be hope, someday down the line.
Once of course, I pay that hefty fine.
In the eyes of most, I’m solely to blame.
But to know that you’ll never be held accountable,
That’s the part that’s truly a shame.
It was so easy to get trapped in all of your lies.
It’s just too bad that now, I’ll be the one who pays the price.
Where the future takes me, I guess we’ll wait and see.
Hand me that axe, my dear, because now I’m breaking free.
Copyright © Del Higgs | Year Posted 2018
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