Liquid Love
My reflection is too heavy to bear
alone, it’s easier to look at myself and my failures
through the amber liquid, tears
through my system, warm and sure.
You left me gracefully, lackluster
Shutting the door on us softly without a word
Void of fireworks and battle cries, with blockbuster
neglect, taking your shattered armor and rusty sword.
This battle you have won with each tip of the bottle,
in the direction of my throat is a rifle.
Will you be the trigger to my gun?
My stomach twists into slipknots.
Escape is too easy at this dangerous hour
But I am no coward and I face my
gallows though the vision of a bottleneck
to slacken the rope.
I have waited for you to
steady these trembling hands with the power of the sun.
Please stop my shaking fingers
with laugh that I miss the most.
I crushed what I could of what remained of your smiles
into the glasses I pour my vices into, just to have you around.
You shine, its easy to mistake
your human actions for a divine intervention of a false god.
My faith is weak.
Shattering with every blink,
I can see the thousands of mistakes
that I have made, and it cuts into
everything.
You cut into everything.
Shattering me after every swallow
You cut into everything.
My liquid love.
Copyright © Bella Cardenas | Year Posted 2009
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