Goodbye Tiger
something inside of me tingles
pin pricks of excitement
a feeling i do not recognize
i answer to no one for i am wild
being tamed only by the the intentions and expectations of those i love
for the first time in so long i am free to love back
despite the things you said about them
despite the imperfect way they say " Andi don't"
I can see the pink yellow and orange in "Andi don't"
you are still here but you look different to me now
younger and smaller and stranger
I see you stomping airplanes
i see you tears despite
I see it change
clouds of chaos clear
I am my own superior
and I judge myself harshly
But I see tickles
and i see children laughing
and I critique myself a little more kindly
I have made improvement ma'am I need from you a raise
My bank was robbed for years and years
a deposit must be made
Oh i deserve it have no fear
My hours are longer there are no days off
but still i smile anyway
still i persevere
I am swift and strong and diligent
the old organization controls me no longer
no one tenses at it footsteps anymore
unorganized and disoriented
yes I was
thrown shocked hurt and almost broken almost broken
Almost though - is the least ambivalent word i know
Almost means i was not when i could have been
oh Aldous what do you know of brave new worlds
come here and sit for i have a thing or two tell you
I am Alice in Wonderland
I am Dorothy and this is the emerald palace
I am riding hood this is me kneeling before the wolf
And I am telling him he is no longer welcome to gobble up my grandmas and threaten my well being
I am Hansel and Grettle - I found the breadcrumbs
No longer am i lost
I am following them back to family
I am Pinocchio and i am finally listening to Jiminey
I am reading bed time stories to my kids
and I AM NOT SORRY
Copyright © Andrea Saggese | Year Posted 2015
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