Freestyle
Cold sweats, cold chains, old bets, old brains
Regrets refrain that i do it again
Heart beats, heart stops, heart skips and pops
Heart races and chases the same thing again
And I'm tired and angered
The kindness endangered
A kindred spirit
Is now but a stranger
Disbelief and despair
Can I not be repaired?
From this constant non-stopping monstrosity called fear?
...
I do have hope, happiness, and a smile
It's buried around somewhere here in this freestyle
I've had many a walk, and many a mile
I've gone quite the distance than most with this vile
Demon on my back
It's just me on the track
Exorcisms and prisons inside of me roar
For the ten year old me that I've seen once before
Cherishing music from 2004
Deeper within conjuring much much more
But enough about me, I'm too quiet and inferior
To my selfish decline and my shellfish demeanor
Can you guess my sign?
See I've done it again..
Enough about me, what about my dear friend?
What about all the meaningful times that we've spent?
Aimfully aimlessly flightful and zen
A stranger yes once, a now kindred spirit
I told her I'd hear her so why can't i hear it?
I don't want to hurt her.. I truly can't bear it.
Still sizzle, still singe, i scorch and i sear it
If you're still reading i thank you
I guess I'm just venting
A heavy digest of inner conflict: self resenting
Copyright © Jorgie T | Year Posted 2024
|