Left Alone Yet Again
You know that feeling,
The one you get
Filled with pain,
And heart break.
No, not the one
You feel in the
Pit of your stomach.
No this is the feeling,
That grips your heart
With complete defeat,
And total anguish.
I’m left alone again,
Abandoned by the one
Who truly knows me!
Best friends for years,
But foremost you said
We were family.
Fated ad tied,
The day we typed hello,
In the chat site that saved me.
Over seven years.
Consisting of an emotional rollercoaster,
We’ve laughed and cried,
But not once strayed from
The others side.
Seven years and,
The many names I came to call you.
Stranger, friend, even
Lover to.
Soul mates then best friends,
Not one regret till your one eighty.
Blind sided, I had no warning.
Abandoned, left with
Discarded confessions,
Long talks and shared heartache.
You weren’t my ace,
Nor my savior.
I never once,
Asked you to save me.
You were never meant to mend me.
Yes, i'm messed up.
Morals twisted,
Wrong choices are what surround me.
But they are my burden to bear,
Not yours to shoulder with me.
All I had ever asked,
Was that my best friend,
Would stand beside me,
Not in front or behind me.
I should have known
Time and time again,
Iv been abandoned by,
those I love so blindly.
So take you “space”
Don’t glance behind you.
This brokenness is
Just another scare on my heart,
Don’t mind me.
You get better, in fact
Why don’t you just
Forget about me.
I’m stronger than I look,
And despite all this
Ill pull through.
I always have, not a doubt
Inside me.
With all my love
I’m praying for you.
Hope you find what you want.
Out of everyone,
You deserve it babe.
Ill miss you , but like you
I’m done.
Our whole past,
I’m leaving it behind me
Buried in a broken graveyard
That surrounds me.
Copyright © Rose Yohn | Year Posted 2016
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