That Night
A dark heart took me to a dark place on a dark night
Years spent breaking me down till who I was , was out of sight
I can’t see all I hear is loud screams some of my own
In my mind I am in a field running alone
He, My angel looks at me to take his hand somewhere in the light
But then he smiles and takes back his hand and tells me to keep the fight
His smile so bright it delivered hope
Gave me the strength to survive and cope
Never knew love hurts of shades black and blue
As I lay on the ground getting stepped on like gum on his shoe
My tears were begging god to see me through
I promised if I survived I would start new
Over the sound of insults I am numb
Echoes “No one wants you , You’re pathetic and dumb”
He hated me , I've never seen so much hate
He wanted me to die but who is he to choose my fate ?
I ran though I was weak and full of fear
I saw the devil in his face but I knew my angel was here
I locked the wooden door that was flimsy as I trembled.
A broken woman is that what I resembled?.
This wasn't the first time I was put to sleep in pieces
With a cut lip and a black eye as my heart races
This wasn't the first time I was told I was worthless
Or choked till I was left breathless
But I promise it will be the last, I will deal
I will put my shame to rest and I won’t be afraid to feel
I will work up the courage to look myself in the eyes again and smile
I will forgive myself even if it takes a while
Copyright © Jessica Jay | Year Posted 2015
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