Defetist
One day you are happy and then you lost happy...
And everything became ruined.
It's when your hopes were as high as the pedestal that the pedestal fell down on you so hard.
To breathe.
That was the idea.
But struggle came.
You became friends with striving that you fell in love with it,
because you felt a little joy with it. With striving.
You two were so damned.
So damned that it consumed all of what you have.
You strive.
Feel little. Either positive or negative you feel just little.
Happy, you were there. Lost you, but I know you're just there.
Hiding. Together with another pal contentment.
When will be the both of you will drop by?
Negative or positive only one of you stayed.
Hi Love. You made me the worst and the best person.
The most damned of all.
There's no little nor big of you. You're just here.
Just here. Watching and influencing me to be the best.
The best of wreck and the best of good.
I got you. Always here.
You've made me the best and the worst.
The most selfless and selfish.
And it's driving me crazy every freaking day.
Copyright © Carel Jean Abulencia | Year Posted 2015
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