All Alone
Sometimes I pretend I have him
I think about our lives and I grin
Then I remember there's no him there
No him to hold my hand, no him to care
Everyone around me, in love and married
I'm here alone, like a corpse, buried
Tick, Tock, the time goes by
Do I look up to 'God' and ask him why
I'm alone in this world with no him in sight
Just me by myself on this cold lonely night
Will I die this way, old and grey with no bae
That can't be my life 'coz that shit is cray
I question myself, all the time
Am I fat? Am I ugly? I know I'm no dime
But I have a heart of gold that should be shared
But all they do is break hearts with no feelings spared
So my self-esteem decreases and my confidence falls low
And still I try and smile so these feelings will go
Everyone says 'Don't worry Bukola you'll find someone eventually'
But eventually, regretfully, medically doesn't produce heavenly biology to make pregnancy
I stare at my phone, no messages, no calls
Alone and neglected just me and four walls
So with this I say goodnight in hopes that I might find a knight
With good height to take flight and make me feel as high as a kite.
Copyright © Bukola Adedeji | Year Posted 2015
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