Myself
I don’t know where I’m headed
Nor do I know my future
I’m not prepared to face my past
And I don’t want to go back
I’m tired of the love songs they sang to me
When I was a child
It’s time to let go of the teddy bear
I’m not heart-broken
Nor am I love-sick
I just want to meet my inner self, where I belong
I don’t want you back, and I don’t need
Someone else to lead me to something wrong
But these tears haunt me
When I’m awake, when I’m asleep
Even in my dreams
Telling me I’m a demon, I’m a monster
That I haven’t had enough, I’m striving for more
I’m struggling, I want to kill
This time it’s going to be me
Who am I?
I don’t know anyone, anything when I don’t know
myself
Death is my final punishment
For all I’ve done, for my sins
I couldn’t take it out of me
When I look in the mirror
All I see is skin and bones
Not a heart beating out loud
But I need to hold on
I’m in a battle between myself and what I know
I’m not the same person you’d have met a while ago
I’m a mystery, a puzzle I haven’t been able to solve
No one can, not even love
But this battle, like any other,
Must have a happy ending
I can’t save myself anymore, got to take control
In the morning I’ll open my eyes and see it’s gone
But I won’t
Copyright © Anasa Ibnath | Year Posted 2013
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