The War Within
the war within
spinning...uncontrolably
friends betrayals
I give give give...
they take take take...
fear...aching fear inside
money...****ing money
IRS...college...utilities...everybody
stomach is sour...queezy
children abused...even killed
adults like gangsters...evil
when will it end?
how can we stop it?
troops must live like animals
surviving off the government
government...what a joke
people die on roof tops
families shattered...lost
hurricanes...earthquakes
God humbles our spoiled nation
It CAN happen to us
no immunity for the powerful
people die...so many gone
education...just an obstical
blocking the road to wisdom
Mans laws...the Constitution
Gods laws...the Bible
Evolution...they teach it
we know the real story
In the beginning...
yada yada yada
Mans law...we can have guns <----they teach it
Gods law...we can't steal or kill <----they don't
robbery...murder
guns a tool for both
Mans laws...shouted
Gods laws...forbidden
I say peace = innocence = POWER
remember the world as a kid
see it now thru kids eyes
let the kids rule the nation
simple minds = simple life
you have a checkbook
so you DO have money mom
oops there it goes again
switching channels in my mind
what college...which path
how can I help...she's on her way
years yet to come...so different
will I make it thru...will she?
changes in attitude
with age comes change...abruptly
this house...I want to lay down
but this house...
laundry...burn it
dishes...break it
carpet...piss on it
dust...blow it
housework...**** it
no friends anyhow
25 shoes laying around
but not one pair?
and panties...
they NEVER have panties
who hides the hairbrushes
did I really buy nail clippers
every thing has it's place
here...every place has it's thing
who leaked the CIA info...
who ****ing cares
do I dodge the birds?
germs everywhere...waiting
mother...well won't go there
PJ...not worthy of my thoughts
JT...so not going there either
Thomas...best friends always...He's #1
Josh & Hannah...well ... gotta hate em
Angels...I feel them at times
David...my angel on earth
news...media...unrated
kids truly believe in friendship
they live...they learn
grandmother...I need to visit
I ache...meds become cash
cash for what?
gambling...food...gas
checks...those damn checks
they haunt me
the telephone is my enemy
surgery?...no surgery
what about 10 years from now
dentist...I'd rather die
my dad...a pain that will never heal
the spinning slows down for now
10 minutes inside my head
so very exhausting...thinking
a short break...then once again
the spinning takes control
Dave the only one understanding
i worry...I know I exhaust him
I exhaust me
I feel better now
cleared some of my mind
the thoughts escaped
the real question is....
will any of this *****matter tomorrow?
ok...here I go again
break is over...
another whirlwind begins
Copyright © Donna Mckendree | Year Posted 2013
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