Joy after loss
Well it's taken a wretched amount... out of time
I'm pretty sure I lost myself and I lost my mind
It's like time to nothings was given
Nothing was needed but my living room and my cell phone
I don't think I rose at the normal time
nor did I to sleep at the normal time
nor did I eat at a normal time
Nor exercised as I might have
nor did what I used to do in anyway
I lost all desire to do the work that I had loved
My passion for it was gone
My interest in anything but one was gone
Time stood still
I sat in the same chair everyday
I did the same thing everyday
None of the pressures and the demands of life
could get to me in anyway
I just sat in the chair and I did what I did online
It sounds as if it I was falling
down down down into the rabbit hole
But really it was a spiritual experience
that no one else will ever have
Miracles happen
the inexplicable things that can never be told
and never be explained
It was not a time of loss
It was a time of tremendous gain
Some things can never be lost and some things never gained unless you walk in those shoes That can never be explained
It was time and time again in an Eden of love and loss
I was Persephone
Perhaps driven by Covid's hell down under
But in this story, Persephone rises all by herself back up to light
and she becomes a part of the tree of life
Fighting stretching longing for water reaching her roots deep down into the Earth that she came from
into the dark.
She brings truths to the lights and bursts forth in leaves
of a 5,000 colored tree
This is the new me
Risen from darkness and illness into bright and multicolored light
An electric light show
I'm just not sure exactly
which screen on which it should be shown
Big slate ...small stage
Do I work huge or do I work small
Which pill to take ??
Copyright © Ingrid Showalter Swift | Year Posted 2024
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