Forgiveness Forever
You were my secluded well kept
secret
My very own private matter
Selfishly I wanted you all to
myself
Authentically, I didn’t want the
responsibilities that came with
commitment
You were genuine, and tolerate
You took my pain into your
arms and relieved me from my
own self destruction
You understood my
misinterpreted intuition and
over looked my careless flaws
Your eyes saw pass the mirror
image that a normal male
would see
My soul you identified
The real face behind the mask
of shame
Time after time you took my
troubles and made them
invisible
I leaned on you as if you were
a sturdy wall
I depended on your strengths
to substitute for my
weaknesses
I manipulated your feelings too
feed my bruised ego
I used you
I betrayed you
If I were a humble woman I
would fall to my knees and
plead for your forgiveness
Because a divine human being
as yourself is one that you do
not let pass you by
But I am not
I am prideful and arrogant
I hide my sensibilities behind
the barricade that I have built
around heart
I am the woman with many
scars who can not accept love
due to the affliction from my
past
With sadness the only ability
that I have is to offer you my
unsteady hand in friendship
With hope
You accept my submission with
an enchanted smile and an
open mind
My wish
That you find an elegant
damsel to embrace your
abundant love
My aspiration
That you will forever keep me
closely tucked in a confined
place near your heart
My love
Will endlessly remains the
shade of gray
Copyright © Kita Henderson | Year Posted 2012
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