Lost
I am lost in a fog and I can't find my way
Some of my fears it's hard to say
I sometimes wonder who I am is it enough
I sometimes think that my life is so tough
I look around me everyday and see no end
A knife or blade, medicine are ways sometimes I think
To end my life in a blink
To see my blood as it runs down the drain
I am lost in a fog and sometimes it hurts
To feel so alone unvoiced is my pain
Why am I different I want to ask
Is it because I am gay I shout and I scream
I feel like I'm dying like I can't breathe
As I leave the house and the safety of it's walls
Is it because I look the way that I do
Tall and fat, balding on top
Why should I care I want to scoff
People have judged me all of my life
and I all can do is care what they say
I'm ugly and dumb or freaky and mad
It makes me think that it can't get worse
Then I panic and it seems so hazy
The fog is around me they call out my name
Just lay down, and forget all those doubts
Rest and Sleep forget what they say
I'm lost in the fog and I'm getting so scared
I wonder will someone show me the way
To show me compassion and give me a line
To find my way from the deep and dark fog
I am lost in a fog and I can't find my way
Please someone help me someway
Copyright © Patrick Berry | Year Posted 2020
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