I'M Not Ready Part 2
Daughter:
Why?
Why did you do this to me?
I wasn’t ready to come out
And it hurt mommy
It hurt really badly
But then it stopped
You dumped me in a toilet
I didn’t even get a chance to say good bye
Why mommy?
What did I do wrong?
I loved you mommy
Didn’t you love me?
Didn’t you believe in me?
I promised I was going to make you proud
Did you think I couldn’t do it?
I sorry for not being good enough for you
I see you cry every night mommy, holding your stomach
More then you did when I was there
Everyone else seems happy but you
I wish you had let me be there for you
To love you unconditionally
But you didn’t want me to,
I noticed you never look in the mirror anymore
You don’t spend hours on your hair and makeup anymore
Remember how I was going to be your twin?
Is that why you never look?
Because of me?
Probably not
You don’t care about me
You killed me
Maybe you crying over daddy
He left you after you left me
I would’ve stayed mommy
I would’ve made sure you were happy
I would’ve loved you forever
But you didn’t give me a chance
Mother:
I’m sorry
I’m so sorry
I messed up
They told me it wasn’t alive
But I saw the little body
Bloody, tiny, and helpless
I can’t do anything but cry
My boyfriend left me
My parents still won’t look at me
And now I’ve lost my only baby
I’m alone and empty
And a murderer
I didn’t even give her a chance
To see, breath, smile, cry, love, touch, smell, fail, succeed
To Live, and I regret it
Copyright © Dominique Mcgee | Year Posted 2011
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