Am Never Gonna Cry Again
Am never paving way ever again to tears,
Am standing tall to all these fears,
I have trembled enough,
Struggled enough,
Am never looking back again,
Nothing will take me back to that futon,
I have worked harder to slide back,
Embraced everything even their mock,
I have leaped in pain for many years,
My whole being brought down in tears,
I never learnt how to cry,
I was born in cry,
Every day I have walked in trauma,
Gripped by hurt to have tremors,
All this have made me strong,
And now you want I slow down,
And all that for what?
So that you can say I have a heart?
Just forget it,
Am not even gonna think about it,
No, am not giving you a way,
I chose to do things my way,
It hurt I chose to stray,
Follow you and later cry,
I have been doing that all my life,
Living in pieces just to have a life,
I regret I chose to live a lie,
Walking away from where I belong,
Just to please you and them,
I forgot me and you won,
But did you ever think about my pain?
The reality things will never be the same,
Your mantra now am sure are just turmoil,
To hug my dreams for I to fail,
I met life only in black,
When lucky grey is what I spotted,
I see many colours when I look back,
Those you kept only to your world,
I lived in a world of anger,
A territory that consumed all my power,
I bedded in a world of disappointments,
And woke up in a land of disillusionments,
I hated everything without a reason,
There was never a meaning in any season,
This is the world you drove me to,
And made sure there was nothing I could do,
It’s never too late in life,
That a lesson that punched my face,
Believed me today I had a smile,
Something I never thought of in my life,
Now am more lessoned to face this world,
Life has no mistakes and forever this I hold,
A hundred times I will fall down,
Bruises and cuts all over my face,
Wipe the dust and start all over again,
Positively the only way I know how to shine,
So no matter the fears,
No matter the years,
I will never shed tears,
I promise nothing will break me into tears.
This is a motto I will take to my grave,
I will clutch in this truth as long as I live,
Many may try to type my heart out,
Possess me and break me out,
Think twice before you try to figure me out,
Am better I know I can sing you out,
Snags won’t ride me anymore into hiding,
I will meet them all smiling,
Cause I know where am heading,
The road may break,
Stagger me to break,
I will fall and still shot,
Be agitated out off my shirt,
And still seek dreams with no limit,
I say this evolving high and higher,
Pursuing more shine from the sky.
Copyright © Elizabeth Lepapa | Year Posted 2011
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