I WILL BURN
I WILL BURN
They say don’t burn bridges you may have to cross later.
I don’t mind swimming if the bridge was ed to begin with.
~ Shonda Cauley
THE POINT 2015
Apologies in advance my life is not always this X-rated. But I got this bull going down and hear me now – I just ain’t having it.
I rant out to you, because I am a writer. I rather enjoy living life aloud and sharing my experiences in, points of verse, and chapters.
For me I have laid down so many times especially over this douche. There ain’t no choices left in the situation, so – I’m coming up swinging.
Here at “The Point” we parade crazy around and every now and again a girl must tap that “ghetto” side. ‘Cause we got haters to the left of us AND haters to the right of us AND haters from every corner of the complex that we live in. Now I got’a deal with hater that came up out of my own bed AND apparently, he’s some kind’a pissed off about it.
So, you can imagine the energies that are trying to rock my house, our life, our homes AND my head AND as strange as irony is – this one situation that now has my full attention; unbelievably – it didn’t have to do with me – in its beginnings.
See, I have this daughter, we call her, The Praying One. She is an absolute freak of nature. So kind in her vanilla mind I don’t know where she came from. Her story of recovery FAR different from her older sisters and mine.
She happens to be a single parent to a genetically gifted small tribe.
My baby girl works 40 hours PLUS in that HOT Florida sun all gha!damn day! With NO help from the ONLY father. Obama don’t do much, she doesn’t qualify to become what you would call a “Welfare Recipient…” Standing there with her hand out ain’t really what my baby is about.
She is the most selfless person I have ever known. Always giving to others, never taking for herself OR thinking of herself. Not one foul word have I ever heard fly from that beautiful mouth.
She firmly believes that this world is NOT so ed-up. She actually believes it can ALL BE CURED through – kind words and prayer. She also just so happens to be born a spirit of the air.
I’m a fire sign by birth on ANY zodiac known. That’s my baby girl you just so happen to shove around and put your hands on. You rolled out of here with some new chrome jewelry, and some brand-new charges too.
Now you wanna with us.
AND you want to blame us?
ALL because you are an alcoholic and a “junkie” JUST like me, except, you have come to believe that you’re – special…?
Come up a “liar” to me – talk all that slick one more time. I won’t be warming that body, there won’t be one left to find… I promise you; I will burn.
I will burn morning, noon, and all through the night.
I will burn every color known to humankind.
All the shades of oranges to purples and my favorite, blues.
Then the colors of passion, pink, to red and rainbows of scarlet a ’hue.
With words like blissful, and disastrous, to outright threatening, and possibly – torturous.
Relentless I will be, because my daughters’ air will feed me.
You think I am going to take that foul mouth? All that banter and verbal vomit you text and inbox me morning, noon and ing night.
My only advice for you, is the same it has been for years, “Don’t let your tongue get those teeth knocked out…”
Somewhere along the lines you and your haters’ crew got us strangely ed up. In the end the truth stands and there really ain’t you and I can do about that.
And you know what’s really gonna piss you off, each AND every one of you? Secretly, deep down – you’re my favorite ones to with. With all those smiley emotions, stars and hearts, explanation points and .
Behind all those words you try to use that are just WAY too big for “folk” like you.
Like, junkie, banger, pill head or whore. Or recovery, the trader, the mother, the ones who really deserve the pain of your favorite threat of punishment.
Since I am such a focus in ALL your minds at the moment…
I gotta tell ya it’s kinda pathetic Joseph, all you can do is sit around and think about me.
AND since sobriety, or my sobriety is the ONLY leg you have to stand on. About the one thing you will NEVER take from me is the last time I had a needle in my arm.
AND I will not keep my mouth shut. I will SCREAM to my keys. Every bit of how I perceive it, right along with my pissed the off flaming spirit.
So, do yourselves a favor, I know every one of you stalk my social media pages. Stop drinking with him and feeding him dope! That motherers’ thumbs are texting me at fifty-five miles a’minute.
AND according to his calculations, creek has been burning for days.
Best watch yourself ladies and gentlemen that just happens to be something that I am born of.
Copyright © Shonda Cauley | Year Posted 2026
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