Our Tormenting Love
Shut up darling, I am about to scream
No, it’s not your fault that you are mean
I’ll pick up this mess I made with my heart
I might be missing some parts
Thousands of pieces shattered after you dropped it
That act was quite reckless
I’m still trying to figure out why you did
But I’ve been told that curiosity is stupid
Drowning without you
Your rescue is long overdue
I’m choking, sputtering up sobs
What are the odds?
You were the one who is keeping me down
I can’t make any sound
My vision starts blurring
These lungs are burning
Your hands are gentle as they prevent me from inhaling
I’m swallowing all the lustful words I said
Such phrases leave me feeling dead
They tasted like iron and felt like razors cutting my tongue
My suffering is thrown into your jokes and puns
I practice remaining the same everyday
Watch as I laugh and smile for you to hide my pain
Shame, loss, heartache, and silence
Doctor says it’s the symptoms of a broken heart
Aren’t I just so darn smart?
Headaches and heartache feeling under the weather
Give me those love pills that make me better
Lovesick from your dozens of poisonous words
Recovering from the overdose of your drugs
I barely made it out alive from this one
I was convinced it was just all for fun
Got a bit greedy after we started
You would give me what I wanted
‘Selfish and toxic’ is what we were
My therapist couldn’t agree more
Curses escape my lips when you leave the room
But my quietness is ignored like a silent tomb
Words can either be loud, empty and raging
Or hushed, powerful, and angry
You’re so perfect one way but cold and reckless the other.
Copyright © Elena Bradford | Year Posted 2024
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