The Human Condition
I thought I was laughing
When I was only crying
And I was trying to breathe
But found myself choking on my tears
Swimming in my fears
Too much stress
I know I’m a mess
But I don't know what comes next
Because all I am
Is not yet determined
And I think it would be easier
If it were just already set
No choice to make
Too much freedom suffocates
WHAT?!
I'm supposed to know who I am already!?
Who i want to be
Forever?!
Say I can't keep living in my dream
And life ain't as it seems
Well yeah, I know, I see that
But it's SO much easier living in my fantasy
Because in that dream
She likes who she is
How she walks, what she says
And that mirror doesn't make her wish she were dead
Her confidence is killer
But I just want it to kill me
Because this is not who I want to be
And I need to sleep
Get out of my head
Take a breath
Get some rest
I know what I need
I'm just
Hard to please
Because I should be happy
No, not because I deserve to be
But because I don't deserve to be sad
You win
If it's a competition
no, I shouldn't be sad
It's just self inflicted
See, but that's just the human condition
If we have nothing else to feel
We try to make the lies seem real
Give us something to hate
So it's not ourselves we're forced to obliterate
Copyright © Deyja Sieben | Year Posted 2025
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