My Candid Poem
Sometimes
I'm not sure if I am Me.
I fall into the safe Despair, Regret, and Lamentation
and the reindeer in my mind digs a hole in my heart to find a reason.
I step outside the world for a moment and watch the hole,
the hole filled with
my rough red but quiet waves in my heart.
Inside the deep deep silent waves
there is that reindeer lying down,
Observing the flat stars falling down.
When the red waves from my heart flow over the reindeer
The reindeer just closes its eyes
still lying down on the silent waves.
But when its white horns tore its skin,
it abandons its horn,
Instead of bones,
And runs,
Until the hooves worn out.
Until its face is shattered.
Until everything is gone.
And finally
The last step of the reindeer purls through my cheek
Then I bait the reindeer antlers
to find a new reindeer
And when there are no horns left,
I lay down,
Started digging into the deep deep silent waves.
Abandoning my legs
Instead of my hands
Abandoning my horns
Instead of my bones
To see myself hiding under my heart.
Copyright © Haneul Joung | Year Posted 2024
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