What I Would Give For An Apology Right Now
I turned my back on the world a long time ago,
but you can't turn your back on it all.
As much as I deserve to be emotionless,
deeper and deeper yet - I will fall.
So are you my curse or my blessing?
Because sometimes I can't tell.
I need you so badly,
and it hurts like hell.
Sometimes so good,
sometimes so bad.
Sometimes so happy,
most often too sad.
I can't keep holding my breath,
walking on eggshells with everything on the line.
I try to unlock what you hide away,
and cover with "I'm fine."
You know the power you have on me,
the ache I feel when I'm low.
And although nothing seems it will ever change,
I am still happy pretending not to know.
Copyright © Hannah Rosenthal | Year Posted 2010
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