Me
Voices voices voices,
Is all I hear when I'm in between the choices,
Should I say this or that,
I wouldn't even know cause yall would still be mad.
I feel so pathetic,
I feel sympathy for the people who are sick of me,
I guess I was just too engulfed with the fake love they gave to me.
I was being genuine,
I was being me,
I thought that's what the world wants me to be,
but I guess I was just mean,
Maybe I should just fake it,
Like how everyone is making it.
Maybe one day I'll master those tactics.
I hate myself,
I hate my fake self,
I don't even know who I am anymore,
Am I this or that,
I'll never know cause I'd still be mad.
Mad at myself cause I can't please everybody.
Mad at myself cause I can't please this dummy; me.
Shut up shut up shut up
Is what I want to say to the ones that drowned me in that sorrow cup,
Telling me what to be,
Telling me how to be,
When all I want to be is free.
Just let me go is all I plea.
Just let me be gone,
And I promise I'll never spawn,
I promise I'll let you guys be alone,
With all your happy ever afters
As I go chase the other fellas.
I wanna die in the eyes of others,
So I won't make any dirty smudges.
But let me live in the eyes of me,
So I can find the rest of my own key.
Finding back my ways to the path God had created for me.
I just wanna find back my sunny.
Now where is the real me…
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