Maybe
Stars jaded with delight
because the sky was torn in two
My angel loses flight
With crumpled paper wings
Ashes to ashes
Dust to surrender
while the clouds hold no regard
A love story of sorts
Leaving a bitter taste of loss crawling under your skin
Mumbled speech with even harsher tones
She was ignoring me, But i didn't seem to care
A refreshing smile wandered on her face
As she wrapped her arms around another man
But jealousy seemed to have no hold on me
Squandering at the thought and an undeniable love
But no connection, a desire, a viable drug
She told him to leave, her heart on her sleeve
Emotions run dry when it's just you and i
She said
I walk on, and never look back
But my perception is clear and full of indelible fears
She holds another man's hand, lack of a whispering tear
Speech so beautiful..trite but sweet, like a kiss in the ear
But this didn't phase me
And again she says
Just leave, you're not good enough for me
I like you, but whats the point?
I admit, i smiled that she left him behind
A love to define and a truth to defy
What now? I ask myself
I walk on and never look back
I'm alone
Souls with destinations proposed
walk past with mingling ideas
presented by the touch of a rose
I feel her presence .. Her shadow bothers me
She's following me, but do i want to look?
She grabs my arm and turns me around
A smile so beautiful, bright as day
Yet monotone, shrouded in grey
She puts her arms around me
And looks me straight in the eye
She struggles to speak as she begins to cry
"I Love You" she says, the words ringing in my head
We stand there, like time stood still
If i let Her go would it be for forever?
I Love You and only You and though it doesnt seem like it
We'll make this right. I promise...
"I.. Love You Too," I struggled to say
"forever.." I mumbled and prayed
Here, In Your Arms, where I'm supposed to be
A feeling so complete, when she was close to me
"Never say Never, don't deny me this love..."
I open my eyes.
Is she here?
Consciousness returns.
I wake up alone, in the morning
My phone is ringing and the klaxon's singing
A feeling of anger sweeps me off my feet
A hatred so deep, discontent so obvious
I try and believe that it was all real
But it wasn't .
I drive my fist into my pillow, and lie dormant
Screaming quietly towards the sunshine
Why?
Damn it, Why?
I tried to go back, but reality set in
Loss is collateral while the only fatality is sin
Why did i have to wake up?
She said she loved me.
She said she loved me.
In my dream...
Copyright © River Anton | Year Posted 2010
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