By Yourself
Everyone says that you are born alone,
Immediately you are supposed to go on into the unknown,
Big hands are supposed to guide you,
But how do I help myself from not feeling blue?
Everything seems to new,
And how am I expected to get through?
It is brutal, everywhere I step I am cut,
But how am I supposed to pass through this hurt when all the doors are shut?
The looks of pity have started to disgust me,
But how am I supposed to acknowledge there are tears behind those stupid glee?
Unknown we all wander off into a distance,
With no idea how to come back into existence.
The happy eyes have started to die,
With no idea of how to get by.
Why is it that normal means happy?
And for you to love you need to be sappy?
There is enough sadness in me to fill the world,
But why do I still make my smile pearled?
There is enough anger in me power a bull,
But why do I show that I am beamful.
I am lonely but I do not show,
And then everyone says, “I can see your smile glow.”
If do show that I am sad,
Then why do people ignore me telling me, “you’re mad.”
I can feel something eating me alive,
And I am expected in this condition to thrive?
Oh, how do I tell you how I feel?
When I am faced with, you’ve lost your zeal.
I try, I try and I try until I will die,
But all I am left with is to lie.
I live my life trying so hard not be thrown,
Oh dear, why did I ever try only to be left alone?
Those sad eyes won’t ever get their gleam back,
At the end we are all left with a crack,
Everything you had, you love falls through it,
Yet you will be alone in no position to quit.
You are a coward, you are a fool.
Oh, why are you so cruel?
If you are lucky you will be left untouched
But for loners like us we will be crushed.
Copyright © Kripa Aryal | Year Posted 2023
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