Covid - Through the Eyes of Anxiety
Everyday started out the same before.
People would be close,
but not too close.
We would hug,
kiss,
and greet each other.
Meet with friends and family on the weekends.
But now our world is turned upside down.
Overnight we were isolated,
life held its breath
and the world's heart beat stopped.
Panic swept through like a roaring river.
Shelves were empty.
Roads were abandoned so much that my shadow scared me.
Masks took over,
and breathing became difficult,
but the world regained some life
while the stench of death coated the globe.
People didn't listen,
they never listen.
The masks were torn away like band aides from and open wound,
and thrown away like yesterdays news.
The stores became so croweded
each aisle was like it was before.
My chest tightened.
Too close my mind shouted.
The woman in line stepped closer.
Too close!
Back away I wanted to scream.
Breathing down my neck
My heart clenched.
Stop!
You're too close!
Please I can't breathe!
Can't you see?
I can't breathe!
I am so panicked I can't even breathe right.
My heart is so tight it feels like someone is squeezing it,
waiting for it to burst!
Go back to safety!
Please go back to staying away from me.
Please wear your mask so I can breathe!
Your rights!
What about my rights?
I deserve the right to a prosperous life,
to good health.
So why should my health suffer for your lack of care?
Get to the car.
Lather my hands with hand sanitizer like a greased pig.
Get home.
Wash hands.
Walk into bedroom.
Wash hands.
Take off clothes.
Wash hands again.
Put on clean clothes.
Take the thirty minutes it takes to calm down from my panic attack and just breathe.
Anxiety is not a life long friend,
its a foe that sticks to my hip like glue.
It stops me in my tracks,
covers my mouth,
and strangles me to death as I just try to get something from the store.
Stay away!
Your too close!
Follow the rules,
wash your hands,
six feet distance,
wear mask.
Follow the rules unlike everyone else.
Too close!
Stay away!
That's what is inside my anxiety prone mind.
Copyright © Scarlet Wolf | Year Posted 2021
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