Shadow of Myself
I don’t know
What I should think,
How I seize to exist,
How I can drive
Without seeing anything
Not the road, the traffic,
Or anything else.
I act as if I am
Dead but still alive.
My body is there,
But it is just an empty cover,
Package without content,
Hallow skin
Without any ability
To feel anymore.
Smiling at everyone
When there are no more tears left
To be shed and cried.
Acting happy
Though my own world inside
Is crumbled, shattered,
And doesn’t exist anymore.
Therefore I can only
Maintain, be and exist
Cuz I am not allowed
to leave behind and quit
this life of mine
that doesn’t have
any worth, meaning or purpose anymore
to me or another.
So all I am now
Is a shadow of myself…
Copyright © Sammie Christensen | Year Posted 2008
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