Play To Lose
I'm not here to stroke your ego,
Or be the victim of your lies.
I need to save myself
From the emptiness inside.
You might not see it yourself,
But we're playing tug of war.
A constant pull back and forth,
Like we're not a team anymore
I should let go of this rope.
Heal the lacerations on my skin.
I can't keep playing this game.
When my energy is wearing thin.
You tell me to change myself,
And argue when I disagree.
Tell me I care "too much".
Which is a flaw apparently.
You used to call me beautiful,
And it sounded so sincere.
But since then,
Harsh jokes or silence is all I seem to hear.
If your words hurt me,
I stay quiet in fear of seeming weak.
It's not fair I have to think twice,
Whenever I go to speak.
Who do I turn to
When I want someone to trust?
You never cared about me,
Since all you feel is lust.
I used to lie to myself,
Apologize for your mistakes.
But now I can see the truth,
And there's not much more I can take.
Everyone seems to understand me,
Except when it comes to you.
While I fight for you everytime,
I'm just some girl you chose to pursue.
You aren't who I thought you were.
My eyes always deceive.
My friends told me you were careless,
But I didn't want to believe.
I'm not some puppet girl,
You keep on a string.
Things aren't going to change,
So I need to stop wishing.
Don't tell me it's all in my head,
And you still care about me.
You never knew what you wanted,
So just set me free.
Copyright © Emma Berg | Year Posted 2020
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