Cancer Takes Away Much More
Cancer takes many things away,
Unexpected, more than I can say.
The first you think of, is your life,
But for me, it took my wife.
It wasn`t her who had big C
No, that I`m glad, it fell to me.
And as the years slowly passed
They showed our love, couldn’t last.
The fault lies, at no one`s door,
The communication, had been poor.
I probably just, could not express,
Or get these feelings off my chest.
It seems she did not understand,
I suffered as a one-man-band.
After hormone treatment took its toll,
Control of my emotions it stole.
She did not know how to react,
Or understand the full impact.
Of how cancer, had affected me,
And spoiled, our once great chemistry.
To dull the pain, I turned to drink,
My fuzzy brain, then couldn`t think.
But then I showed, in other ways,
The fear, the stress, in my drunken haze,
I tried to face this thing alone,
But in the end, it ruined our home.
Now sober, I can finally see,
How hard for her, to be with me.
Not knowing how I would react,
Our lives became so problem packed.
We argued over many things,
Money, no sex, and even flings.
With all that grief our marriage cracked,
So many things, had an impact.
Now we`ll go our separate ways,
To live out the rest, of our days.
I don’t blame her, I blame myself,
That our love now, is on the shelf.
For cancer may be in the bones,
But it`s the brain, it really owns.
It`s only now, I realise
As I wipe tears, from my eyes.
Our ride in life has passed the bend,
As now, our time of marriage ends.
My fight with cancer still persists,
And life goes on, with turns and twists.
I truly wish her all the best,
Our past together, was time blessed.
Go now, love life, enjoy your time,
Now you are no longer mine.
I too must make, the best I can,
And trust myself to fates great plan.
From Jungle of Emotions by Ross Alexander
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Copyright © Alex Ross | Year Posted 2019
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