When All Said and Done
Freefalling, freefalling, my life rushes by,
Though it feels to me long, was the blink of an eye.
Daydreaming, daydreaming, as a young child I grew,
With no distinguishing marks between me and you.
I’m growing, I’m growing, came the secondary stage,
Hormones rushed through me with sadness and rage.
I’m crying, I’m crying, alone in my bed,
Beneath the dark sky my eyes wept they’re rimmed red.
I’m afraid, I’m afraid, what happens from now?
Nobody can save me, they wouldn’t know how.
I’m confused, I’m confused, what did I do to you?
Why do I deserve all the things that you do?
I’m ugly, I’m ugly, drum into my head,
Replaying your taunts, all the things that you said.
I’m desperate, I’m desperate, you were right about that,
Not a friend to rely on, no defence as you spat.
I’m tortured, I’m tortured, are you pleased with your life?
Are you happy I am worthless, have you sharpened your knife?
I’m fighting, I’m fighting, against my thoughts dark,
I know what to do now, time to disembark.
I’m beaten, I’m beaten, defeated at last,
Now it’s time to move on, leave the past in the past.
I’m writing, I’m writing, as I let them all go,
My family, farewell now, don’t come, don’t follow.
I’m certain, I’m certain, this is the right way,
The end to my heartache, the end to the day.
I’m hanging, I’m hanging, my life flashes by,
There’s a pound in my heart and a tear in my eye.
Then stop.
I’m lonely, I’m lonely, my voice is no more,
Now you all hear what you didn’t hear before.
I’m floating, I’m floating, away from this world,
Leaving all the abuse that you spread, that you hurled.
Freefalling, freefalling, why don’t you take a seat?
Take a curtsy, or a bow, your mission is complete.
Copyright © Laura Allen | Year Posted 2020
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