Sleeplesszzzz
I cannot sleep
And so, I go and fix some hot herb tea
He wants to help but some things I must do alone
It is the wine, he says
You drank too much
The wrong kind
Without the ice
I am fine I say
Go back to sleep
By now, I think I know what the problem is
I have a head too full to lie upon a pillow
It is not full of wine
Not full enough at least
Just sleep, you need your rest
I need some peace
He cannot understand
I can help you go to sleep
He wants to touch me
I do not want to be touched
His dog is barking
The stack of bills on the desk call to me
I walk past to fix my herbal cure
The computer beckons me
I have to push the bills aside to find the keyboard
How long I have missed you
I caress the keys
My fingers find the words to open up my soul
No one empties me as you do I tell it
It struggles to fulfill my demands
I war with it
We do a verbal tango
I sip my tea
I am calmer
My headache subsides
I am feeling sleepy
Thank you I whisper
I drain my cup and turn off the box
That moments before bled its glow over my fingers
And lit up my face
Thank you I say as I retreat to the snores that fill the night
Thank you God I whisper as I crawl into a bed full of warmth
A large snoring lump of resting passion
And what is this
Small hands reach out to touch my cheek
They pull my face in for a sleepy kiss
Good night angel
Mommy is here
I sleep
Finally
Copyright © Lori Dzierzek | Year Posted 2008
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