Finally Fine
Finally “Fine”
It’s exhausting being so goddamn fine all the time
It’s not like it’s a facade anymore
It’s just the new me
I don’t get upset
I can’t cry
I can’t be happy
The only emotion I feel is anger but that’s not even red
I just feel fine
I miss being sad and depressed
I knew that
I felt that
Now, I don’t feel anything
I want to be upset but I can’t
Things just roll off my shoulders and I get it
It doesn’t even sound like a problem but it is because I don’t feel like me
I feel like a stranger in my own skin
There’s a disconnect
And as much as it hurts to feel
I want to be connected with that pain again
It doesn’t feel right to not be
Copyright © Marina Britos-Swain | Year Posted 2019
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