Janus Hearts
Who we are in our minds
To show all others in this time
Janus hearts beat as mine
But what she sells outside is not the true person behind blinds
A smiling face, a light walk
Tells nothing of her true hearts
Everyday the same, rain or sun she moves on
Each day fabricated of the last, never changing, never seeing past, past the way we live our lives in this day and time
Following everyone the same
She tells herself in her mind this it, i do belong
But inside her doubt arise
Clouds her mind and maybe her life is not so sublime
Silent cries go unheard for this life is not as it should
Everything laid to waste because of all the greed and hate
It brings her down, makes her mad
Why can't i just be happy
But this is life and i am well
I should not dwell
Smile and wave happily to everyone she passes
Fitting in, belonging
Fabrication of her longing
this is life, this is mine
Follow in step as everyone else
Agreeing and pleasing so no one can see thy true self
Sublimate her life this way
For an easier life gained
Day after day,week after week, year after year
a decade turns to two
The burden of this simulacra of her life, wears and tears and burns her thru untill there is no light
Dark and cold
forever told
Stay in line and all will be fine
But nothing is fine, all is wrong
We just keep pushing on
No one see's, no one care's
Janus hearts are aware, she wants to scream, scream it loud
But does not dare for everyone would just frown
To belong and get along
Agree to all she see's
To be part of this human race
So her life will not be misplaced
On and on hiding well
Deep inside, buried alive to she herself believe's nothing else
Copyright © Summer Ratliff | Year Posted 2011
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