Agonizing Thoughts of Betrayal
Here i lie, paralyzed by the sinful thoughts cursing my heart with deceptive tranquil blood clots,
who ever knew falling in love could bring so much heartache.
My eyes widen & my nerves are shocked by visualized images of a possible of misleading my Love(s) into another heartbroken faze of believing that i am meant for them... when i'm not.
suffocating from my own vapors of fear & guilt.
Auhh!!.. my mind is going crazy for i am torn between the love of both.
one walks through hell from those angrily shunning the love he has for me causing his heart to sadden & wilt.
And the other, whom i invited into my secret garden of trust, purity, 7 love...while as i face the Bible, lying to those who believe in me most under oath.
out of all the billions of people here on earth why must i be the one to face depression?
why must i be given so much care and concern in my heart to make either one feel so deplorable?
i never knew that today would be the day for me to feel so dumb founded about the deadly poison of confessions.
And to know that whom ever i choose to grow with, i still let pain weaken my soul for the grief of the other who now voodoo's my life and for me not to ever feel loveable.
And still in the broad views of nature and silence from the birds singing, i am still dazed and slumped over by old Lucifer's form of misery riding my back.
Wishing and praying that God could send me some where i can feel pure and innocent of all commandments and forbidden mistakes of the Bible.
Copyright © Ashley Suttle | Year Posted 2008
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