Side of Myself
7:00 AM
my eyes small and tight
a soft shuffle into the bathroom
distorted and jaded,
a half frown on my face
a dog-tired grunt serves as my good morning
8:00 AM
my consciousness brings stress, anxiety
a checklist in my head
I can never seem to check off all the boxes
a smile locks my lips together, I must hide my agitation
8:20 AM
the school bell mutes me
I must concentrate.
No talking, No laughing, No districations
my ring finger purple and bruised,
I always write to hard
teachers pet, try-hard
I must keep the holy 4.0
Lunch
a break
time has never tasted so savory
the strings unwinds, my body loose
my laughter overpowers my strain
until I am muted yet again
I have to get to class
3:30 PM
my golden hour
I am free
my stress and smarts stripped away
I am young
I feel love
my voice raises, my confidence grows
where judgement is prohibited
9:30 PM
my brain starts to settle
check 1, 2, 3
is all my homework done?
Is my alarm set?
and I’m ready to do it all again.
Copyright © Ash Heff | Year Posted 2018
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